It's about to end soon

He SMS'ed me last night and I finally replied. I could only say, it has to end sooner or later, this quietness. Based from someone's opinion, he doesn't give a damn, and another said it sounded like he wanted me back but just don't know what to do since he is such a egoistic, OI MIN man. Well, I shall let you be the judge of that. The conversation below, obviously the English educated is me...  Sorry for the short forms and broken grammar though because of the SMS language on the phone...

几时有方便出来讲几句吗

wat u wan

都等了好几天你才回复:S 我没特别意思 亦不想搞到这样子 可能我知道你意思了 但是无论如何都想讲个清楚明白咯 你明吗

I gave you a chance but you didn't cherish it. wat u expect me to do? wat u wan me to say? wat u wan from me? or should i ask you wat do you want? I know in your heart there is no longer me. I m disppointed of what you did fucking much. I gave u a chance 2 tell me but u just said stupid things. You still wanna protect her. What can I say?

我没要求你做些什么 你已经跟我家人交待了东西都拿完了我亦知道你在网上通知全世界了我相信你这个做法亦都不能改变什么了 只想我们讲清楚咯

I gave you so many chances. But u didn't even think of doing anything. Shows how much ur face is more than me. Up to today I m still giving u chance, but u dun seem interested anymore. I really have nothing to say anymore. U have your freedom now.

我不是没想过 可是你已经做到这样了 我还可以怎 你要跟谁讲我都不要理了 但是你根本没接我电话亦没回复我的信息 那我点样做呢

If you still had the heart, u will go against everything and try n get back what you lost. But u did not do anything and just gave up. Cant contact me is just an excuse. Your heart already know what you want. I also know.

你故意不接我电话又没有回复我可以点！难道你要我去你家外面站着等你才爽吗 加上一开始你的做法就好像没弯转了我都不知点样讲了

If you had to, you would. That's how I knew how not important I am. It's always your face that is important. You could wait til I get home, you could go to my shop, so many things you could have done but u didn't.

你做到这样子难道我去你的店找你 转头就可以当没事发生吗 又不是小孩子了 无论如何都出来讲清楚咯

Excuses.

你一早就做完决定了而且都很完整 我都不知你想我点

Then think yourself. Your God gave you a brain

应该讲当所有亲戚朋友都问我发生什么事之后我的脑真的没有了我真的不知可以跟你讲什么了 我看你还是不明白我说什么

1 word. Face.

又不是小孩子这么大个人了当然要脸啦我真的不明你的做法 点解我们的模式这么大分别呢 你觉得应该给全世界知道吗 大型补祸方式我真的不会做

U have decided not to do anything. U got your answer.

这不是完全的答案 信息真的很难跟你讲 几个信息怎样讲呢 希望你安排一下出来给个机会谈一下 顺便有几件事拜托你 跟你商量

got anything just say here. I don't wanna go through yelling with you anymore. I am fed up of being scared of u! This thing happeneds, I can't sleep well. But u? I don't think it affects you at all. I really must congratulate you. I don't know why I m suffering while you enjoy your life.

我不是要跟你咬些什么 只想讲好好的 如果最后你真的接受不到 那你要怎样就跟我说咯

U never listen and we will end up yelling. I don't wanna have another chance to tell at each other anymore.

我只想讲好好的

What you wanna talk about?

出来讲啦

I will help you in your company warning letter. I will not HOI you. Don't worry. What else you wanna say? What about?

我想讲是关于我们的事 其他的几件事到时再商量

What you wanna talk? I don't think there's anything else loh.

你一直这么讲 我还可以说什么

Coz you say this that also same things. What you want say then say lo. I give you chance ma. Not I din give.

我说信息很难讲 出来才谈

Where When

你安排一下咯

I don't know when. These days very busy. See how.

That's the end of our conversation. It was longer than I thought. I planned to only send him a few, but ended up to flood my phone. The conversation started from 11.27pm til 12.51am. yeah. Really long conversation...

Woke up this morning feeling really tired. Still had to wake up from another nightmare. I dreamt he begged me to go home to him. Right...

Headed to gym after teaching my student. After working out only for 20 minutes, I weighed myself and found out I am 2.5kgs lighter. AMEN! I will keep it up!!!

Bestie accompanied me for lunch. showed her all the SMS also. I am glad to have her through these years, especially when I need her the most. Without her, I would have no idea who to turn to!